Part 2

Okay here's the rest of the revelations during Fatherheart of God week last week....
Last week, God really opened my eyes to how He has created me to be creative and Ross talked about this thing called an inner vow. An inner vow is something you say to yourself about to yourself and you start to live out of it. I asked God what my inner vows were that had been created by how I grew up, and he told me one was this lie that I can only draw/ paint/ create what I can see and copy/ reproduce (i could never envision something in my head and create it). God told me that's a lie based on the way I learned art, and that He has incredible visions and creations in me, and I just don't need to be afraid to fail. Instead, I need to engage with him, willing to take risks with him and explore. I am reading an amazing book right now by Erwin McManus called WIDE AWAKE (If you are looking for a cool book) and it has been talking about how much we limit our imagination and exploring- but those are the agents through God wants to reveal his dreams for you. Exciting stuff if you let it be... So I am exploring right now in this really cool journey with my Father into His creative Dreamer heart.

Another thing we talked about was coming boldly into the throne room. Why don't we come boldly into the presence of God? Usually it has something to do with fear. But what would happen if we let go of all fear, just to relax at the Father's feet? I kind of wrote about doing that on Saturday, when I got to just hang out and do nothing other than just be with God. It was such a beautiful moment that I got to spend just sitting and relaxing and even having fun with God!

There was so much from last week that is hard to just summarize in little quotes... but Thursday of last week we were encouraged to get away and think about our own families and particularly our fathers and how they have affected our view of God and ourselves. This was really introspective and hard to go that deep and that far back but a really cool thing to do. Then Friday we shared all of those things with each other and Ross (as well as all of each other) prayed over us. It was a really powerful time that God just re-enforced this word he had been speaking to us about his heart for family and us as a family going together. A lot of us got really amazing words for each other, and there were so many generational strongholds that I really believe God broke that day by speaking them out loud and breaking them together in the Name of Jesus. Amazing, amazing time...

I think that's most of last week... I'm sure there are things I learned that haven't even started developing in me yet. There's so much. Lectures are packed with so much good stuff (and that doesn't even include stuff outside of lecture!) Anyway... this week we have been talking about Missions, and Bruce Skinner (the base leader) has been speaking. It's been so exciting so far, and God is really showing me His heart. I'm realizing how small my view of God can be and how small my view of missions and His working in the world has been. God is blowing my mind right now and revolutionizing my view of Him, the world, and myself. Some pretty big things happening! I'm going to wait to post about it all until you get a chance to read this, maybe. But it's been a really cool, exciting week and I think will continue to be!

christy